Thanks so much for your insightful comment! I love how you say that being a little girl is “only an aspect” of you. For so long, I feared growing up, feared leaving my childhood behind, foolishly not realizing that who I was then is still a part of who I am now. Grown and changed, a little smarter and a little wiser, but still there. I don’t think you ever lose that. I’ve since come to realize this, to appreciate it, to accept it. And I do know that I’ll find someone who will appreciate this aspect of me. I’m so glad that you were able to find that for yourself, as well.

I will definitely be checking out that link! It’s something I’m really working towards. Unfortunately, I found that I had been so hurt (and surprised) by the ending of that relationship that I’ve unconsciously closed myself off from affection. It’s something I’m aware of now, something that I’m working on. Something, like you, I hope to be able to learn from and find again.

Thanks so much for your comments and insight; it really has helped me to glean a better understanding of my situation — and to look forward to what’s to come. Wishing you the very best!

Susan

After trying to grow up and trying to grow up, one day I did find that special someone who cherishes me and in that love I get to be all my selves–all my ages–because that’s who I am.

Yes, I am becoming more responsible, poised, wise as time goes on but I also get to lean into him in that special way …

I don’t doubt that you will meet someone just right for you. And that you can stop sabotaging and let love in.

I recently began consciously choosing to let love in. My old habit is to be completely happy and then suddenly begin withholding affection and being critical. It sucks and I hate it when I do that. I did it with my high school boyfriend and I haven’t loved anyone as much as I do my current fiance, since.

I noticed I began doing very similar behaviours. They worked with me on a BlogTalkRadio show the other day it was really neat! (It’s one of the most recent things I linked to on my rawprincess954.blogspot.com btw if you want to try it along with the show.) I became the client *grins*.

Thanks for all your musings and sharing on the balance of art and life. I was once at a place called Zendik Farm which now I can hardly recommend. Nope. But one of the passions and strivings for balance I came away with was the most important thing for an artist or musician is to keep working.

That’s what I see you doing and that’s why I keep reading!
cindy